I willing and literally handed the key over to my old routine to follow the word of God after Jesus re-enter into my life. Over the years I never lost my faith but became angry during times I had felt I had no control. Still he continued to carry on his love for his lost child, my heavenly father was persistent in protecting me and saved me from things far worse. How blessed and grateful I am!
I called out in hurt “Why are you not answering me?”
His response was very clear, “Do you listen? Listen to me, you deserve better.”
That one sentence changed everything.
Amplified Bible, John 15:11
I have told you these things so that My joy and delight may be in you, and that your joy may be made full and complete and overflowing.
God does not want us to suffer. He asks only that we seek him to find answers and our path will be filled with promise.
For a long time, I tried to look for solutions without praying on my decisions. This only lead me to an endless cycle of seeking. The mind is a spiritual battle field and for many years the enemy tried to convince me that I was unworthy of receiving God’s love. The devil whispered hopelessness into my ear and used people or events to break my faith. I felt humiliated, angry and severely depressed. Worst of all I became angry towards God. The devil tried to talk me into ending my life but it was the glory of God that saved my soul. Today, I ask God for his forgiveness of my sins. How free I was when I finally realized that God never left my side during turmoil. God was always there to protect me.